Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in esmiel's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
9:25 pm	so many things happening....Lately..the church have sent me on alot of mission to Nifflehiem... the land of the death! I was down there with alot of different people.... Sir Robin he was very strong and noble and could make a big cross of light appearing, miss Zezi and Miss Seryna who would make pretty lights appear, and also miss Pastel too, and there was also amazing archer like Miss Ayami and the Dancer of dreams...and Kitten from lou yang helped out sometime too and also this wow alchemist who could make plants fight for him! we had many adventure down there..... but some of them a little sad..Miss Zezi seemed like somebody who knew she forgot something, but couldn't remember what and she seemed drawn to nifflehiem city...and when we got close to nifflehiem.....then it was like everybody got afac..afec.....strange from being close to it it was the same mission where we met an ghost knight! we had to get some valuable thing from him...but we had to spend a long time listening to him and try to tell him that we would help him go to a better place it was fun some time too..I could swing my arm straight through him in the end we got it through..and then suddenly the ghost melted into alot of small things! uhm....I should write more often...my memory isn't very good I will write more, when I remember more! (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 2nd, 2005
11:18 am	waah...so many thing happening..... adventure, quest, new friends, old friends...and..and... ah! I should start from the beginning first.. uhm....first! I was with this very clever sage named Oksana who the church asked me to protect while she trained her magic. I tihnk she do alot of important research that the church are intear...inta...uhm...want to see! then one day in Izlude...I met miss Bloodline again! we only had a short talk...but it was nice see'ing her and knowing she is back. ahhh..so many thing..I have to write more often instead of waiting. adventuring in the clock tower and finding an very mysterious old magic papir from an scary spirit mage that miss Pastel said I should show Elder Elmikie...and then he told me to go down there again! and I also helped another crusader and his friend figth the orcs and spend alot and alot of time training up new people...but..uhm...I'm not a good teacher so I hope they still learned something. I also tried the arena...but it's hard...I only got to arena number 4 alone...so right now...I want to find alot of friends and try with them! Father rukabalru said that everybody need to take a break sometime....so I want to take a break haivng fun with my friends! Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 26th, 2004
10:51 am	*Nerveus* what to do? what to do? WAAAAAH .... WAAAAAH What to do?.....the girl who I trained with some days ago, Miss Bloodline. I trained with her again yesterday and things went very well, I even played with her pet lunatic (it's name is Poofums) Then she suddenly said that I was her knight in shining armour! and, and..when I said that I wasn't one, that I wasn't a big hero like in the books, Then she placed a hand on my cheek and said that I didn't needed to be a big hero, that I just need to be me, to be her hero and knight in shining armour. I don't know what to do. She's just being nice, right? ... But, then she said that I could just call her Valerie and she then dropped her hand down to move her finger along my armour. I don't know why, but that made me very nerveus, even more then when I was figthing that Wanderer. like..like...Very, very, very nerveus! Suddenly all I could think of was that we had training to do and I quikly said that to Miss Bloodline. After the training I went to the Sograt desert to train myself...don't know why, but I felt like getting far away to think. But I don't know what to think! maybe...maybe I should ask father Rukabalru, or miss Pastel...or sir Len! sir Len is very smart, maybe I should find him and ask him what he thinks. Why is this..this...I don't even know what it is, happening to me? I just wanted to be nice. Current Mood: nervous (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 22nd, 2004
3:43 pm	WAAAHHH WAAAHH...something..something...can't find the word for it, happened yesterday. Must start from the beginning! Yesterday, I helped new mage students, something about King Tristran the third, wanting more mage who have trained alot. The last one, that day was a girl with the name Valerie M. Bloodline (didn't ask what the M stood for) We went to bibilian, where I protected her, while she trained her magic on the monster down there. Then, when I was leaving she..she......waah, I'm blushing just thinking of it....she... she gave me a kiss! It was on my cheek and I think it was a way of saying thanks for helping...but still, a KISS? I quikly said goodbye and wished her luck, then ran off. what should I do?, what should I do? I only met her once and she....wah, can't even write it again, and I promised to help her again. What should I do? Current Mood: embarrassed (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 16th, 2004
3:42 pm	wah..something scary and in a way also eksiting happened yesterday. I was visiting Payon and I was about to go exploring, as I heard somebody mentioning the wanderer of Payon forest. I asked them, and they said that the wanderer is a masterswordman who allways train, and allways look for opponents to practise his swordmanship against, who had turned undead, but they didn't knew why. One who allwas had to fight and never rest, never laugh, never be together with his friends. I couldn't help feeling sorry for him, so I asked them where I could find him, and set out to free his spirit! Walking through the forest (and defending my self from some scary walking trees that could make fire appear) I searched and searched and finally found him, and guess what! He was practicing with his sword by cutting over bamboo sticks that he threw up, not cutting them in the middle, put splitting them from one end to another in the air! At first I was abit scared, then I saw a thief walk nearby and the wanderer immidiatly went after the thief (luckely the thief used a flywing). and I then knew what I had to do. I had to protect those people who just want a picnic, and I had to free the wanderers' spirit, so he didn't had to fight, but instead could rest, if I didn't, then somebody might get hurted, while I was waiting. So I put on my helm, prepared my shield and charged him! It was the hardest fight I had ever been in, he moved like a..like a..like a leaf in a windstorm, moving all around me, I could barely hit him, must of the time I simple countered with my shield when I could feel his blade, and hoped for a hit with my sword, and his hit felt like ... like a sharp rock falling from the sky. after a few minuts that felt hour long, I had to quikly use a flywing and rest up. at first I considered if I should go train more..but then reminded my self that training could take a long time, so I finished my apple, bandaged my wound and went looking for him again. When I found him, the same thing happened again but I noticed that he was being tiring, so I kept fighthing, then resting, then figthing over and over, untill finally, I managed to land a solid blow with my shield, sending him back, into a cliff, he felt down lay stil, and suddenly his body disppeared in flame and smoke. His spirit was free (I hope) and the forest was a little safer. I was very tired after that, so I made a camp out in the forest and spent the night in the forest.   Current Mood: proud Current Music: Yoko Kanno, escaflowne bgm: Dance of Curse (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 12th, 2004
11:20 am	Hi Journal! I hadn't written much, been very busy. must do something about that!   I have been helping out at a orphonage the last few weeks, watching over the other children, playing with them and teach them what I know, it was alot of fun! though..some of the adults there thought it was strange that a Crusader would do it, I wonder why, we're here to help people and make them smile, right? ... right! Anyway, I left yesterday, a young man..can't remember his name, asked me to escort and protect a alchemist, since he didn't want her to get hurt and he had things he had to do, so I volountered, since some new people had arrived in the orphonage, so I didn't had to stay. (but I'll return I think, being there is fun) I met the alchemist in Izlude and we then headed to byalan island, and under the island we saw some very..what's the word..magnifikant ruins and she explained that is was a treasure island, and she was down there looking for treasure, so the rest of the day went with that, exploring and looking for treasure, and admiring the ruins.   (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 18th, 2004
3:32 pm	only two day and allready so many things happening. Yesterday I headed for Geffen to help out with something in a tower basement, but I think I took a wrong turn, cause I ended up in Prontera! It's even bigger then I first thought, I only visited the castle and Cathredral on my training, but the vity it self is just as amazing, the people, the smell, the sights. In Prontera I ran into two people who asked for help with training...wah..first time I'm the one who taught people thing. after that I went to Geffen and there I met Miss Pastel, she told me that the cathredral had sent people to help crusader and Miss Pastel said that she voluntered to help because she knew me.  Miss Pastel is so nice, helping me out and making me feel comfortable on my first mission. but about the mission, down in the basement of the tower (a very big and "wow" tower..want to visit it again) we fougth our way through alot of poison spore and then we came down to a place where these white sheets attacked us...they could turn invisible..they could fly, but the must scary was that my sword went straight through them! luckely Miss Pastel was there to banish them. So we decide to go to the pyramids down to the third level and started to put the mummies to rest. They where bound to somebody called Osiris and had to fight even after death. I wonder if it's the same thing for homuncolus. ... oh well...doesn't matter, anyway we got chased out when we meet something called a mimic. Miss Pastel explained that they where monster that lured people with promise of treasure and then it would eat them! and then she told me alot of scary and sad things about humans...how they had a black light in thier heart that would make them evil and how even children like the ones I like to play with would kill each other for a girl if they felt for her....and..and....wah. But I think she was just making fun (please please please let it be true) cause when we traveled to visit the orc village Pastel found some big green insect feeler that she putted on her head and joked that she would turn into an insect, but luckely it was only a joke and she even gave me the feelers plus, now I know what to do if it really do happens. In the orc village we ran into super orcs in the western part, but after sometime, Miss Pastel had to go, so she sent me to Alberta where I stayed for the rest of the day. it was also thier I was told by a knightress, Miss Amala, that argiuber would sooon have thier mating season and that she was going thier..so the next day (today) I went theer. tomorrow I'll write all about what happened today, now I have to go the inn keeper said my dinner is ready. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 16th, 2004
8:09 pm	*wondering if this is the correct way to write in a journal* My own journal! (the one I'm writing in now) Now how am i supposed to use the journal? nevermind, I'll just write what pops up in my head. well for starter...I am now a Crusader, I had to go through a long and hard test, figthing monster, answering a written test (hardest part), bringing stuff, but I had help from Miss Pastel and Sir Len, so things went good! during the test I met somebody who said he was a gan-star, but nobody explained to me what that was, so maybe it wasn't something important. I also got a new crusader armour and Len gave me a ring, where somebody had written "forever to death". I think I understand what it means, cause Len said something very smart about Crusader and Priest helping each other like a ring, if only I could remember eksactly what he said, it was very smart. also Pastel said some very inspiring things, about how I can now fight for God and for the King and for everybody and make the world a better place, doing things that will make people happy! After that I went to see Father Rukabalra, he was very proud and treated me with cookies and gave me the journal, as a gift for completing my Crusader Training. He said that "it's important that we remember what we learn in life ir ekse we hadn't learned it and that we remember our life it self, for our life is what we remember", so I got it so I won't forget. And I think I will soon have alot of things I don't want to forget. I'll finally be able to travel on my own, instead of being warped to where I have to train, out to adventure, and new friends....and seeing the star from the obervaturium near Geffen..and visiting kokoro beach and exploring Juno and listening to the stories from bards in Comodo and... and...wah..alot of things I can do now but...I'm also abit nerveus, first time I get to decide my self where to go and the world can be too big and also scary sometime....I saw Dark Lord on one of my training...and he was tall as a tower, fast as the wind and strong like houndred, no, thousand peco pecos...but I'm a crusader now, so I can protect everybody against all the scary things in the world and much show valour even if I'm scared.  I also think I'll miss everybody back at the abbey. but, Father Rukabalra trust me, so thing will be okay! and I can allways go back and visit everybody when I am free. well, time for me to go, there's a world waiting for me outside the abbey. Current Mood: happy Current Music: ragnarok online. "one fine day" (2 Comments |Comment on this)